I couldn’t think of what I should say
When Adam saw Eve in the Garden
I believe he felt the very same way.
Now that I understand this song, years after I first listened to it it’s the saddest song I’ve ever heard.
It’s about a boy who works for the circus, travelling around place to place constantly, never having a permanent home. One night in Anytown while working he sees a pretty girl.
“In a screaming ring of faces, I saw her standing in the light”
He often sees pretty girls while working it’s nothing new to him, but this time is a bit different, he proceeds to talk to her and blow off working the whole night and spend it with her, going on rides, getting to know her, etc.
“Girl it looks so pretty to me, like it always did.”
He’s seeing his ‘home’ as he never as before because he’s seeing it with her. He never realized how beautiful the whole setting was from his perspective, but now that he’s finally seeing the forest instead of the trees with this girl he’s realizing what it really is.
“She took off her silver locket
She said Remember me by this.
She put her hand in my pocket.
I got a keepsake and a kiss.
In the roar of dust and diesel
I stood and watched her walk away.
I could have caught up with her easy enough, but something must have made me stay.”
This is where it gets sad. At the end of the night the girl obviously has to leave, but she feels about him the way he feels about her. When he leaves he wants to go with her, but he’s frozen at the exit, he’s never been apart of the outside world before. He’s a part of the circus, but just as much the circus is a part of him and regardless of how he feels about this girl he can’t renounce his status. It then sinks in that he’ll never have emotional satisfaction in his life, he’ll just travel around, putting on an empty smile, night after night, town after town.
“And now I’m searching through these carousels and the carnival arcades
Searching everywhere from steeplechase to palisades”
If I was a person who cried at songs, that would do it. The next night, presumably in the same town, he blows off working again, but this time to spend the night looking to see if she came back.
Squat: 355 x 6 x 3
Feeling a bit better, but still some pain.
Bench: 250 x 8 x 3
Powerclean: 185 x 5 x 3
Chins: +70 x 5,5,7
Better not be stalling.